Tues, 8th Nov 05

What does one say to ...   

And so he left for home. I know u wouldnt wanna go home in this state.. i know it saddens u a lot, having to go home like this...  i worried about u.. so so worried.

What can i do?  I will just have to wait for u to be back.. healthy & smiling...

This is now more like a medium for me to jot down what's been happening in my life, around me.. while you're away. I realise and understand that "we not seeing each other at the moment" is neccesary for the both of us, if we are to remain as friends. And so, for this reason, im willing.

Thurs, Oct 13 : Made an excuse to meet up with you for the 'last' time. Im glad (?), no that's an understatement. I dunno.. im glad, to the power of.. ermm... it's infinite!*scratches head. Fck, whatever that is. Im happy we didnt end up arguing last night. Hope you were happy to see me at DBS. Hope it was a pleasant surprise. Sorry tho abt the pizza, if only they were still warm!  

Hope you really know i care. Thanks for accompanying me to see the doc. Thanks for loosening up last night.

I miss kissing you heapes, i miss your breath, i miss your scent. i mu.

Fri, Oct 14 : Everytime the phone rings, my heart skips a beat or two. Just when i was about the start writing an entry, you called. I wonder how you're doing at work.

Many condemned Oct 2nd. Many thought their opinions mattered. But how many, may i ask, dared to put himself into our shoes for just a minute?

Its as if ive found a gem, lying on the rocky shores... the joy i felt, when i held it in my hands, against my heart. The feeling of owning & belonging were overwhelmed me.

But now the time has come, for me to throw this gem back into the ocean. I'll soon be parted from you.

And so i stood at the edge of the cliff, eyes transfixed on the vast blue ocean, i held you one last time against my heart.    ...    ....

You are back into the ocean. And one day, you'll be washed to the shore again. But this time, i know the person picking this lil gem will not be me.

How, tell me how am i supposed to be feeling now?

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And so this is it. This is how it's going to end.

Dont know how things are going to turn out tonight, but i promise, i'll try not to shed a tear.

Im sorry, u neednt see me in this state. You shouldnt.

Dont ever worry abt me, i'll pick myself up.  Im stronger than u think i am.

Thank you, for the company.

+Will not blog in a million yrs to come+